today public duty was fun man!! plus a little borin..my first pd that got casualties sia..omg! i sound so sadist..but who cares? nw cn prove 1 ting..people in the police get super rough when they play soccer..the most serious 1 was this guy who need to go to the hospital..like so omg! apparently, he tink his tenden or smth broke..and like people heard a snap sound..so scary..then pris and tian nee acc that guy to the hospital while we stayed at ecp..and more and more people got injured..its like so..apparently, pris said our first aid nt up to standard..haiz..i tink we treated a lot of sprains plus abrasion..haha...nw noe y my dear handsome xiami dowan go le..she cn predict e future le..lol xP
anw, this week is filled with dance practices and 5th dec is zpn! cnt wait to c my juniors perform..jyjy wor..and enjoy ur outin tmrw.. 6th dec is the standard chartered run..duno y mummy help me register..haha..most prob will be walkin wif mummy frens bahs..rofl then 12th dec is 45th le..wonder wat tyme it ends..duno cn go cousin bday celebration ma..beta cn lor..if nt i feel so guilty:(
and i lurve lurve the dance that we r doin! so cool! i tink aft we learn finish it will be veri nice!! haha
smtymes even the smallest thing make me suspicious..i cant trust u enough..3 more days to 1 wk...its tyme to make a decision..i dowan to end it but im afraid.seriously afraid..
Friday, November 27, 2009
QUIZ..tagged by noone..jux copied fr nana blog..too bored le..
1.what if your crush confesses to you? i wil be smilin all day long..
2. what if your crush hates you? doesn realli matter to me..alot of people aready do..crush nia, cn get over de(jux nid time;P)
3. what if your stead/crush suddenly leaves for another country and never comes back, would he/she tell you before he/she goes? maybe he will tell me ba..obviously even as fren, thr wil be a farewell party, so i sure wil noe de
4. what if your stead/crush leaves(see the previous Qn.) and he/she did not tell you? if its a stead, hes a jerk, no point continuin lovin him if he doesn care bout ur feeling.. if its jux a crush, he might nt even be my fren in the first place, so i don care
5. what if your stead..( previous Qn.) and he/she told you? i guess it wont make much of a difference, hes still gg anw
6. what if you leave your stead/crush and never return back, would you tell him/her? i will..but i wil do it in a nt so gud way..make him hate me, wil be easier to get over me
7. what if your best friend is having a secret affair with your stead? i will be damned if tat happens..unless my best fren is gay..haha
8. what if your best friend lied to you and you had to find it out the HARD way? depends on wat he lie to me..
9. what if your crush/ stead actually likes another guy/girl? if its a crush, he wouldn noe i like him, so no difference if its my stead, i'll let him go..as long as hes happy
10. what if your best friend likes the same person you like? LOL! my best fren is a guy..
FAVS. & REASONS
1. What is your favourite colour? why? blue. gives me a calmin effect and the nature has alot of blue( the ocean, the sky..)
2. what is your favourite no. ? why? no 7..don ask me y, i jux 'favourited' the no. since i was sec 1.
3. what is your favourite song? why? no favourite song..favourite category is love songs, no reason
4. what is your favourite date? why? umm..1st july..coz smth beautiful happened tat day..but it..haiz
5. what is your favourite name(can be your name or others)? why? i like my own name..coz my parents gav it to me..lol xD
6. what is your favourite brand? why? no favourite.. ;)
7. what is your favourite game? why? for now, tap tap revenge..coz its e oni game nw that attract me
8. what is your favourite alphabet? why? A. coz my name starts wif it
9. what is your favourite day? why? fri! no reason..jux like it
10. what is your favourite subject? why? biology for e moment..its the oni subject tat interest me nw
tag 10 people to do this quiz: everyone hu c this, pls do and tag to tell me..i wnna c ur answers xD
Thursday, November 26, 2009
my second time bloggin today..this post is nt gg to be a happy one, so if u r nt in a gud mood, don read..im nt expectin anyone to anw..and i doubt any of u wil understand so ya, don hav to read..its jux me ranting away..
i realli dono whether to be happy or nt..ok, so i jux agreed to smth that i duno if i wil regret..if it doesn work out, i wil be a crazy freak..i wil jux break down and i wil be more miserable than i ever was..the first tyme im doing this thing, smth that i wil hav scolded anyone hu does it.. i couldn forget 1 mnth ago when u did those things to me, im seriously afraid tat the same thing will happen again..i realli do not wan to be hurt..maybe this wk i shld realli consider carefully..maybe i shld end this..at least i wont be hurt though i wont be happy..u promise again to nt hurt me, but doesn this sound familiar..1 mnth ago, i was left alone with oni broken promises..promises that i tot was true, that i tot u wil nt break it..but, to u, do those promises mean anitin at all? u stil broke those promises in the end..are u realli serious? i hav alot of qns on my mind, i might noe more than u tink i do..i duno whether u r being true..pls, don hurt me again.. when im tryin my best to get over it, u jux didn let me..nw, im nt tryin, wil i regret it? shld i continue, or shld i end it? god, y r u makin a fool of me? im sad nw, im confused..im nt tinkin straightly, i jux dono wth to do..u said u wan for a long time de..wat is considered long? 1 yr? aft tat, wat wil happen? people look at me as a strong, fierce gal..some noe im nt liddat..i hav to be liddat..i don hav any security..i need security, if u cnt giv me, maybe we shld end it..like i said in the previous post, up til nw, i don tink we shld continue..im afraid.seriously
ily, but i hope i wont regret it
a song im listenin to alot now, one that reflects wat i feel, a old song
I probably shouldn't say this But at times I get so scared When I think about the previous Relationship we shared
It was awesome but we lost it It's not possible for me not to care And now we're standing in the rain But nothing's ever gonna change Until you hear, my dear The 7 things I hate about you! The 7 things I hate about you, oh you You're vain, your games, you're insecure You love me, you like her You make me laugh, you make me cry I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks When you act like them, just know it hurts I wanna be with the one I know And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do You make me love you
It's awkward and silent As I wait for you to say What I need to hear now Your sincere apology When you mean it, I'll believe it If you text it, I'll delete it Let's be clear Oh, I'm not coming back You're taking 7 steps here
The 7 things I hate about you! You're vain, your games, you're insecure You love me, you like her You make me laugh, you make me cry I don't know which side to buy Your friends, they're jerks When you act like them, just know it hurts I wanna be with the one I know And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do You make me love you
And compared to all the great things That would take too long to write I probably should mention the 7 that I like
The 7 things I like about you! Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's When we kiss I'm hypnotized You make me laugh, you make me cry But I guess that's both I'll have to buy Your hands in mine When we're intertwined, everything's alright I wanna be with the one I know And the 7th thing I like most that you do You make me love you, you do
at aunt house now..xD
yesterday flag day was kinda okay except that it ended superb late and my face went stiff from all tat smilin..lols..it wil be the oni tyme of the yr u c me smilin for duno hw many hrs straight..my location was at orchard and i tink the amount we collected by the weight of the cans is considered ok for a weekday bahs..haha..but we noe the different kind of people and the stupid excuses/actions they do so they don donate..like im nt forcin u to lor, u wan jux donate, dowan its ok..and ll cried coz 2 woman scold her, make me feel so guilty..anw, thanks to all my frends hu helped out yesterday :)
till next tyme, cya peeps!
u sms me yesterday and i was shocked, somehw, i agreed..lets c aft 1 wk hw ba..but up to nw, i tink its nt gg to work out..u don understand wat i wan..anw, lets jux hope we wil come to a conclusion of doing wat is best for us..i realli dowan to be hurt again..pls keep ur promise if it continues
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
okay..so today i went to sch to collect tins for flag day..i carried hm 22 tins!! omg!! my shoulder hurts lor..had dance practice for 45th, was kinda cool and funny..if we cn perfect it, it would be wonderful!! then went wif dar py, eileen, nabil to 18 chefs, had a sudden cravin for them..haha..and we chatted..i feel so guilty that i make them hate u, okay, maybe i didn MAKE them hate u, they jux did aft i told them everythin..but oh well, im fr guilty gang, doesn matter if im guilty..i always am..lols tmrw is flag day..standin for duno hw many hrs..sianzzz..and and, i hav to thicken my skin tonite..hehe
will u go for zpn? 1 part of me wans to c u again, the other hope u don..let jus take 1 step at a tyme..if u go, i cnt do anitin..
Monday, November 23, 2009
went out with norman to plaza sing today..concidentally, everythin seem to remind me of u, of the day we broke up..alone outside e arcade/cinema, i remembered hw i felt when i stupidly waited..hw foolish i looked when i broke down in public..aft buyin the tickets, went to mac, seemed like 25/09 was re-enactin itself..everythin seemed so familiar and e more i see, e more heartbroken i felt..jux tat tis tyme was wif a fren hu would nv hurt me, nt like u did..i seriously wan to get over u..
on a lighter note, wed is flag day..omg!! muz stand for long tyme sia..sianz..:( tmrw muz go sch collect tins..hw e hell am i suppose to carry 22 tins bac hm? maybe i shldn hav asked so many people helped out..but its okay...gess sjab muz get top for flag day collection..muz jyjy!! xD
Sunday, November 22, 2009
been 2 wks since i post..came bac to sg yesterday.. hk was fun and a few tings happened which was kinda weird..cnt be bothered to explain much.. overall, it was a nice trip..if oni it wasnt so short..but the weather there was freakin odd..its like sunny but super cold..lols.came bac wif sunburned face and cracked lips..haix:(
i seriously hate myself for stil tinkin bout u..u hurt me like hell yet im stil tinkin bac of the tymes we were 2gether..i seriously wished i didn noe u..i wished i didn went for anco camp, wished i didn fall ill on e 3rd day..then i wouldn be in so much misery..i wan to tel u/shout out hw i feel..im in a state of craziness..i wan to hate u, but i cnt do it..even in hk, as long as im alone, my mind wil wander..i hate u for makin me love u..cn someone pls tel me hw to 4get u?
Sunday, November 8, 2009
damn blog template..duno wat the hell went wrong..al my info on the left side kena highligted..argh!!
anw, thanks to everyone hu wished me happy bday..although i guess im quite late in sayin thanks..lols
2 more days to o lvl chinese..duno y stil haven got the stress yet..hope i will be relax thruout bahs..and and i haven study for it! omg! lols..i don realli noe wat to study lor..haiz..wish me luck!
on a happier note, hk trip is 9 days away..super lookin forward to it..haha..my dear dear pui yee, we try don slp at nite kk? lets gossip! lols, haha, we aready noe hu to gossip bout le..xD 4 days out wif frends, without tinkin bout anitin..i wil try my best to forget u..aft my hk trip, i will nv get sad over u again..
tis is a short post, coz i duno wat to blog bout..no inspiration..so til next tyme..cya guys.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
october just isnt the month for me.. last yr it was the 23rd, this yr its the 25th.. if i could turn back the clock, i would nt hav wanted to noe u or even be frends.. 我真的是一个傻瓜...i shld hav known that no one cn be trusted, especially ur promises..i shld hav known that u are a fake, that wat u said wont be true..if i didn take those seriously, i wouldn end up wif oni broken promises in the end.. y is everyone the same? y cnt we all jux be true? to find out myself is the worse possible ting tat could happen to me, and to be like a fool waiting for an answer, hopin it all wasnt true was jux plain idiotic.. the greater u hope, the deeper u will get disappointed.. and u had to make me feel worse by tellin me all the crap..we all noe it was total bullshit! but still, it make me wonder.. we shld nv hav been 2gether in the first place, we were nv meant to be..
from nw on, i will forget everythin tat has to do wif u and get on wif life. im gg to delet u off my life.. we were nv meant to be in the first place, so y hang on to it? i shall enjoy my life and what i hav nw, nt dwell on the past.. there are still people hu will care for me..i do nt nid u..
from nw on, i shall oways carry a smile wif me and nt show my unhappiness anymore.. i will nt express my emotions to people anymore(except a few) i shall learn fr u, be a fake..no one will ever noe me anymore..im lost
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