Wednesday, May 5, 2010
long tyme since i posted huh?
oh well, my life has been kind of sucky in the past weeks..
i don like to come home, to a place whr i don feel any warmth..这里突然变得很陌生..i don feel safe here..i feel like a stranger..i feel like im lost..and all i wana/can do is to cry..yet i hv to be strong, i cnt show my tears..thus, at nighttyme, is when im most free, when i cn be who i am..when my tears jux fall freely, when i cn finally show my emotions..
aint life like a stage? whr ppl are merely players..whr we act/decieve/lie to others? but wat is the point? all of us hav an endin point..活在世上是为了欺骗,隐瞒吗?
y cnt ppl be truth, isnt it so hard to guess wat ppl r tinkin of? to tink when u r gonna get hurt, get betrayed again?
i had enough, ppl, ur got to noe, i oso hv feelins, don act like ur veri big, don like act all ur tings r important while mine arent, don tink tt coz ur hav a higher statues/popularity thn me makes u able to step over me..jux coz i don say anitin dont mean i don feel anitin..don act like the world revolve around u, don act like ur are always right..i probably am jux a toy to ur huh? a person tt ur wil ask for help but other thn tt, giv me attitude, and do i hav to take all this? no! i had enough, i aint gona giv in anymore..i aint gonna be a tool anymore..i aint gonna be myself anymore..
my keyboards r wet, y the hell am i cryin as i write tis post? amanda ho, giv up bahs, u aint worth a ting to anyone..u aint worth anyting, u r a nobody.算了吧.
6:53 PM
