Wednesday, April 25, 2012
It's our 18th month today.
Yet it's not like before. I know i hurt you, i know you're unhappy. But i just dk wht to do. The course dint change me you know? I changed.
I just decided to think for myself, to be what and do what makes me happy.
I love you, really do. But i just dk if it's enough.
I want you to be happy, but this few days you aint. And i feel bad.
What you said in twitter hurts me, but what it hurts more is that you are hurting and upset.
If we split, it's not cause i dont love you. It's cause i dont think we can be together in the far future, idk if it can work out. And all our arguements recently really made me tired.
What changed? Idk. Maybe it's me, maybe im just not the one for you.
Im afraid if i leave one day, you'll be upset and do stupid things. I want you to move on if that happens. All r/s have only 2 endings. It's either we get married or we breakup.
And if we break, i want you to know that i never stopped loving you, and no matter where i am, i would be wishing for you to be happy. If someday, we can be back together again, i guess it's fate. If not, than im sure you'll meet someone else, someone that really deserves you.
I just dw you to stop being happy if im no longer there. Before i appeared, you lived okay, and you can do the same too. But now, it's different. You'll be leading a mature life. A life that has responsibility. Dont do things that you'll regret.
And if we split, we can still be v good friends. Because, i know i will not forget our memories. And i love you, even till now. But sometymes people who are in love just cannot be togethr, sometymes, love just isnt enough to keep the r/s going.
Idk what i want. Idk whether i still want to be w you. But i know i love you still. And i really want you to be happy.
11:47 PM
